As the new year has only just begun, it is about new starts, right? I thought I would try to start the new year by writing a more personal blog, as I always think it is hard to get to know someone just through the content they are posting, as it brings a level of trust; well I hope so!

One thing which I have always seemed to struggle with is my weight, and I think a lot of us girls are the same! At the end of 2016, I stood on the scales and weighed myself…and I was in shock! I didn’t realise how much weight I had put on in the last three years.

However, before that I have always seemed to be on some kind of diet, whether that was completely restricting myself to about 500 calories a day or trying a diet where I don’t eat at all and just drink a concoction of water, ginger and maple syrup for ten days; I lost a stone, but did it do any good to my body? Absolutely not!

Anyway, ever since I got with my boyfriend in 2013, I would find myself eating takeaways all weekend, lounging around the house and just thinking I could eat exactly what he did. Throughout those three years, I managed to put on five stone! So, as you can imagine when I finally stood on the scales; I was in shock!

So, in 2017 I decided to make a change, and it is probably the hardest thing I have ever done. I had to give up the takeaways and get myself into a routine of eating and being healthy. If you have gone on any kind of diet you will know the constant struggle where everyone around you is digging into pizzas, cheesy chips, basically everything you want to stay away from!

In 2017, I had a goal as I was off on holiday in August and I wanted to lose five stone in eight months. At the time, I thought this realistic, but how wrong was I? The first few months started off wonderfully, with me dropping a stone in a month, then things slow right down (I always think the first stone is the easiest to lose). I think this is incredibly disheartening, as you end up sticking to the same plan but the pounds come off slower and slower.

However, by August I had lost three stone, which looking back on it now was incredible! At the time, I just felt so disheartened as I knew that for two weeks I would be walking around in a bikini and the thought of not being confident made me feel sick. I did, however, decide to suck it up and try to enjoy myself on holiday, thanks to my boyfriend giving me enough confidence to forget the diet and have fun!

Is there anything worse than weighing yourself the day after you return from holiday? I did, and I put on a whole stone in two whole weeks! After that, I tried my best to lose it, but it just wasn’t happening due to events, birthdays and me just being a pig! As Christmas loomed closer, I managed to get myself nearly back to the weight I was before I left for my holiday.

Then, of course, Christmas happened, and I ended up putting on 7lbs during the festive period.

The Present

On January 1st, I thought to myself ‘new year, new me: take 2’. Since this month has begun, I have managed to lose 9lbs; mostly due to that Christmas bloat. I do, however, still feel massive and it doesn’t matter what anyone says to you, there is a voice in the back of your head telling you that you just aren’t doing enough.

An Obsession

Throughout the year I had many ups and downs, where I would be a constant battle of whether I could eat something without logging it into My Fitness Pal first. It almost becomes an obsession where you are logging everything that passes your lips, then stopping yourself from eating something if it makes you go over your daily calorie goal.

Another obsession of mine is the scales, I must weigh myself at least twice a day, once in the morning, and as soon as I get in from work – I’m not really sure what this achieves!

A Learning Curve

I think losing weight becomes a massive obsession and something that many women do struggle with at some point in their lives. However, I don’t think that a number on the scale should justify how we feel about ourselves. This is a complete learning curve which I haven’t completely come to terms with yet, but I am learning.

Weighing yourself every day just makes you feel crap, FACT! I still do this, but I think that I should hide my scales for the six days of the week and have a dedicated day of weighing myself.

My Tips

Using apps like My Fitness Pal and Happy Scale (my personal favourite) can really help you. My Fitness Pal is good at seeing how much you really eat in a day as well as tracking your fat, sugar and carb intake. Happy Scale is a great app for keeping track of how much weight you lose, and if you do put on a pound or two it doesn’t make you feel crap about it, but instead helps you set realistic goals.

I have also done every diet under the sun; Weight Watchers, Diet Chef, Jane Plan and Slimming World. Slimming World worked the best for me, but I have found that counting my calories it more suited to my own journey; I may rejoin SW in the future.

My Weigh In

I think it is incredibly hard to speak about your weight and even harder to tell how much you actually weigh. Well, as I thought I would share mine with my readers, as I’m not ashamed of it at all; after all, it is just a number?

My Starting Weight: 17 Stone

My Current Weight: 13 Stone 10 lbs

My Goal Weight: 10 Stone

This year I would love to reach my goal weight, and I am going to try my very hardest to do so. However, at the end of the day, it is just a number. Will being 10 stone make me completely happy with my body? Probably not, but I will let you know when I get there!

No weight loss journey is perfect…

In the meantime, please let me know if you have any diet tips as well as commenting below about your own weight loss journey!